Complicated Heart :)

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There are just these times wherein you tend to get confused about what or how you feel. You feel different kind of things your unsure of, but in the end you’ll find out that there’s nothing so special about it, or the other way around, wherein you’ll end up getting hurt before even knowing that what you feel was real. 🙂

Different people, different situations, but the same direction. So when are these times when your heart seems COMPLICATED? 😀  most of the answers especially Teenagers will say; “When we’re in love” 🙂 I hear a lot of love problems from different kind of people.. some of them are too plain, some are just minor, some major, while some are deep. Heart aches, Heartbreaks, their all part of the cycle. A person who knows how to love, or loves; always end up getting hurt. It’s vice-versa but then we learn from all our mistakes, and make up for it 🙂

“It is better to love than to not have loved at all” 😀 well yeah .. oldies. Well we all know that LOVE is a great feeling. Unexplainable, different, unique, fun,broad; so let’s just say it covers almost everything since it was given to us by God. 🙂  so therefore we  love for a purpose.  There are times when we are afraid to be left alone, times when we feel our lives are complicated, and so as our hearts, and that we cannot seem to handle how everything’s complicated. We are in doubt, but Love still remains. 😀 we learn how to ease the pain, we learn how to move forward, and we learn to keep ourselves and keep love in ourselves.

That is why it is good to know that after all the things that were made difficult or was naturally difficult for you, after all the sorrow, after loving and getting hurt, at the end of the day, there is always that one person that will mend a complicated heart, a complicated life, in a complicated situation. A person who will always love you, even when your complicated yourself 😀 I know that I’m getting too far and pardon me. It’s just that; I was caught in the moment and found an inspiration to write this thing up. 🙂

“Do not love a person because you need him, instead; Love a person who needs you because he loves you. “

Where do Broken Hearts go?

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Seems like everybody’s heart is breaking today. Most of  the people I know are falling apart as of the moment, and I can’t seem to find out why, but each has a story, and each has their own reason.  A first teenage love affair crashed into an early heartbreak, an admiration suddenly cut off, a doubtful feeling felt, and a weary heart that is uncertain.

A friend of mine who is really a lot younger than me, came up to me earlier today. Upon seeing me, she immediately gave me a warm hug and she burst into tears. Of course I was confused about what happened to her because just the other day, she was asking for my advice on how she can handle the relationship she’s involved with at the moment. Then she wouldn’t stop weeping.. a few minutes later, she was able to tell me what was wrong. She told me that she got hurt because she saw this person she admires most with someone else. Then I told her to be strong, to be tough. And that; she’s pretty and sociable and friendly enough. She’s likeable, so who wouldn’t like her back? then finally I told her to not cry over the person, because she deserves someone better. This little girl is too young enough for heartbreaks and stuff, and I think she isn’t matured enough to be involved in those kind of situations. Cheering her up and giving her confidence about herself made her feel better. And I felt relief afterwards. Finally she realized something. It’s just that, she’s too young to take those things seriously.

Some others today were just silent, quiet, wimpy, sad, frustrated, mad, hurt. and etc. They can’t seem to tell other people how bad they feel. Instead of opening up, they just prefer being quiet or keeping it to themselves, unlike the young lady who approached me and told me what she was aching for. What I told the other one was that, she’ll get over it. Crying is fine, it makes you feel a little bit fine afterwards, though the pain remains. But she’s strong. She’ll be fine. Maybe not now, but sooner or later, she will.

Everything happens for a reason; why we tend to get our hearts broken, why we need to get hurt, why we need to learn lessons, and why we need to love. It is okay not to be okay. it’s okay to feel sadness, but it is not okay to tell yourself; “Hey, just move on! ” remember, “What exists, persists.” Do not pretend. Just let it be. Wait for it till your heart is finally ready, till there’s no more pain, till everything is already in place. There is always a way to fix a broken heart. Eat, Pray, and Love again 🙂

He’s My HERO :)

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We all grew up with Marvel Heroes, saving the world in chaos, in times of trouble, and when someone is in need of help. 🙂 And someday, we wanted to be like them. 🙂

I saw this on facebook, and it made me smile. I was touched by Jesus’ message in there. 🙂 I can see superheroes are good listeners, and how Hulk, Spiderman, and Captain America seemed really interested upon listening to Jesus’ way of saving the world. See, we know for a fact that superheroes doesn’t exist. In reality, we don’t have Superheroes who saves us in times of trouble. Sometimes it is us, who makes ourselves our own hero, with PRAYER as an armor, and FAITH as our shield, and EVIL is our enemy; which makes us God’s soldiers. 🙂 But there are just those times when people forget about Jesus’ sacrifices and why he died in the cross. Isn’t it sad? that some of us doesn’t even know him.. That some of us only calls him when we need him. 😦 such a very sad reality.

Just like Hulk, Spiderman, and Captain America, I hope were one in the same, being a good listener to Jesus, and to Our Dear Daddy God, to his words which will lead us through life. Jesus died for us because he saved us from our sins. Before I was born,  before we were born, our sins had already been forgiven because he died a very long time ago for us. He was the penalty for our sins. That is why My Dear Brothers, and Sisters, I am telling you now his story. 🙂 Let us spread it. Let us get to know him even more, and besides our own selves, let HIM be our hero. Let him in our heart. In that way, we will understand his story. “And that’s how he saved the world. 😉 “

Ze first Puto Bumbong I consumed

 

|Source of photo: Ms. Joanna Christy Filamor |

December 10, 2011 3:00 a.m. and we finally just arrived at Baguio City, took a cab to Teacher’s Camp, and here we are at Benitez Hall freezing and at the same time bewildered because the place was just wonderful. 🙂

 

Ma’am Feliciano, our Instructor shared with us this Puto Bumbong and some other Simbang Gabi Treats which made my morning. 🙂 I’ve always wanted to taste Puto Bumbong but I never had a chance since it is only available and dominant in Luzon. Unfrortunately; I am from Visayas so, how sad for me. 😦 but anyway, my expectations never fail because it was inevitably scrumptious. It does not only look good but it also tastes good. 😉 an inspiration for my write ups that morning. As you can see I’ve been writing and exercising my stored information in preparation for the Essay Writing Contest. After consuming the scrumptious Puto Bumbong, Joanna and I went outside the Hall for a walk. While exploring the place, there was this man selling “Taho” a Philippine snack food made of fresh soft/silken tofu,arnibal (brown sugar and vanilla syrup), and pearl sago (similar to pearl tapioca) which happens to have the original flavor and the Strawberry flavor.

 

Curious of what a Strawberry Taho would taste like, we tried it for 5 pesos and took a sip on it. It’s just like the original taho, only that it has the kick of strawberry in it that makes it special. A Hot strawberry taho was perfect for a cold morning. Mini Breakfast completed! 🙂 back to the Hall and stayed until 6 a.m. 30 mins. later, Delegates from different parts of the country finally arrived and we we’re finally assigned to a cottage which was at the secretariat. 🙂 And there you have it! the fun was just about to start that day. One of my favorite mornings in another place. 🙂

An Old and Simple memory

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Remember a TRIBOND in your English subject which refers to;  jeans, beauty, and memory, identifying what they all have in common? 🙂 then one of your classmates answers the question out loud and says; “They all fade”.

People Change, but Memories don’t. of course! a certified fact, since we all have memories and it never changes because it already happened. But what is in a MEMORY that makes it special and sometimes make it worst? And why did I posted about Memory as a subject? 😀 care to know why? lately, I was thinking about my old memories and part of it was when I was a little younger, especially when I listen to those Old Love Songs. It really brings back those memories I had before.

I remember when I first had an ipod back when I was in Elementary, Grade 5 to be exact. I was so excited to have one, and that my Godmother from the U.S. was the one who bought it for me as a birthday present for my 11th birthday. When my special day finally came, we went to FeDex to get the present because it was sent there. They gave me the box, and I was so excited to open it. When I opened it, inside was just styrofoams, styroballs, a few pieces of papers and nothing more. Everyone inside the office was shocked because there was nothing in it, so as my Aunt and my cousin, and so was I. they told us to conduct a double check but there was nothing in it but styros. I was very disappointed that day. My special day turned out to be disapointing since I was expecting something. They said maybe it was stolen by some kind of thieves during the process. Still I was sad that day,

My Godmother found out hat happened and she guaranteed that she will send me another one, but this time I had to wait because she sent it to my mom, and my mom will be the one who will give it to me when she gets home. Finally when she arrived; it was all worth it, and I had nothing to loose. It had been with me for 5 years now. And even if I have a phone which completes everything when it comes to taking pictures, sending texts, and music; I still use it at times when I want to feel relax and at times when I want to relax. 🙂

There are just times when you see the worth of the things you think that is not that important. Memories help you realize it’s true value and recalling it makes you proud that up until now, it is still present.

“Old Memories.. yes they do fade. you recall it, you forget, but still you’ll carry it with you and be reminded of the things that might be meaningful, unhappy, or just plain and simple ones. The good part is when you recall it, give you thoughts, bring back something that might be unusual, that makes you smile”  🙂

Inside their Heaven

July 30th 2012, Cadt special activity day. The day I was looking forward to, and the day I was excited about since we will be visiting an Orpahanage somewhere in Bliss Kalipayan, that  happens to be “The Missionaries of Charity” that of  course was founded by our late Mother Teresa. It was an afternoon intact with responsibility, cooperation, and unity among the Senior High School Students of Eastern Visayas State University.

|Photo by: Mr. Royce Glenn Solis, Edited by: Clara May M. Riley|

Zone Officers together with the 3 Senior Leaders for every Zone and Section we’re the fortunate ones who we’re chosen to conduct the feeding. Truly I must say I consider myself lucky because not all are given the same opportunity especially that it is a special project and more than that is of course, it is a Charity work for those children who we’re abandoned by their family.

|Courtesy of Royce Glenn Solis, Photo by Melvin Rosanto, Edited by: C.M.R. |

A picture of us when we arrived at the place. We were discussing and also curios about what will be happening and what will be the reaction of the children upon seeing us. We sat down for a little while, and when the Ladies (who were the one’s who take care of the children) out there started bringing out long tables, our Intsructor instructed us to help them and fetch the children from inside. Seeing them, and looking at how young they were was just something heavy in the heart. How could these adorable little angels be left alone without parents? 😦 It’s just like my heart melted and seeing them just makes me want to cry., knowing that their innocent enough of not being aware of what is happening to them, and seeing through their eyes how much they are longing for that tender love and care, and how some of them are excited to have visitors whom they could play with and have fun.

|Photo by: Royce Glenn Solis, Edited by: CM.M.R. |

We were ready to feed them and give them our service, and of course we were all excited. 😀 The tables were prepared and so was the seats for them to sit down. we started serving the food to them and started feeding them, getting to know each of them, and making them feel the “love” & “care” they had been longing for. As their Ate’s and Kuya’s, or Temporary Parents for the day, we spent time with them, till they finish their meals which was the Arroz-Caldo and Orange Juice.

|Photo by: Royce Glenn Solis, Edited by: C.M.M.R. |

I was with a little girl named April. I thought she wouldn’t be able to finish her food since we weren’t conversing with each other, and no matter how hard I tried, I never heard a single word from her. But I was glad when she cooperated     , especially when she finished eating. April happens to have a twin sister named Angel, whom I haven’t noticed that they were sitting next to each other the whole time. Angel wasn’t cooperative and she doesn’t want any of us to serve her. She finished her own meal. 😀 Angel and April are about 3 or 4 years old, and they both are a little thin. I was giving April my full attention and I took a picture of both of us after she finished eating her meal. I hugged and kiss her, and finally, Her smile showed up. Something that money can’t buy, something that is priceless. After seeing it, my heart skipped a beat, touched by her sweet innocent smile.

| A picture of me with April|

We spent a little time with these angels, played with them, and had fun with them. We went to their nursery and everyone was playing, running around and doing several things.

Meet Baby “VICTORIO”.  He is one of the youngest and he has adorable eyes and long curved lashes. He’s smile is just as wonderful, and his stares make you want to stay. 🙂

And finally, here comes Baby “CHRISTINE”  whom at first we thought was a little boy, but she turns out to be a little girl.  🙂 She has a short beautiful curly hair, fair in complexion and she has those Angel eyes that makes you want to pick her up, and carry her from her bed. She also has an amazing smile and she was my favorite among  the rest, although of course I gave them all a fair attention. 🙂 Before we finally left, I hugged and kissed April and Angel, and of course; Christine. Then I gave her my goodbyes and afterwards, we went out of the nursery. Our Instructors were still having a conversation with one of the Sisters in the missionary. It gave us time to taste our Arroz-Caldo and eat it for an afternoon snack. It tasted really good. Then I thought to myself, Everything that happened that day was worth it, and it was one of the best memories I had that I will never forget.

|Photo by: Royce Solis, Edited by: C.M.M.R. |

The final picture for the day. 🙂 We’ve done our mission, and we were happy about it. A new experience to keep and treasure, and a wonderful day full of service, charity, love, and unity. 🙂 Congratulations EVSU SENIORS 13′! 🙂

Boating at Burnham

|Source of Photo: Ms. Joanna Christy Filamor|

It was an afternoon in December 2011, and I think it also was a wonderful afternoon to bond with friends after an amazing Flash Mob at the Rizal Memorial Park 🙂

Burnham was a little bit crowded but of course there was enough space for everyone. 🙂 Then, since we were all excited, we went to try the Boats in there. There were 7 of us who rented 1 boat. It was of course a little bit scary getting on it, but finally, all of us was on the boat, and we’re ready to go. 🙂

Among the 7 of us, no one was professional enough to maneuver the boat. The girls were the ones who maneuvered the boat while the 2 guys we’re just smiling and laughing at us. (Yes they did..) It seems as if we weren’t moving and we’re just staying at one phase, which was awful because others had gone far and we were just moving on the same area. 😦

And by the way, Joanna and I were shouting the whole time because the boat was always shaking, which might lead us to fall off the boat and get ourselves wet. Then finally, Kuya Arnold volunteered so we thought we we’re safe. But I guess I was wrong again. 😀 But at least we went a little too far, but the hardest part was going back. 😀 haha that’s the funny part because we we’re again stuck in another area and boats who passes near by, happens to bump ours which got      me and Joanna a little bit more scared since we we’re totally shaking.

Shouting at the top of our lungs thinking if we could ever get back to the main station; Joanna and I we’re totally freaking out, and the rest of them was laughing at us the whole time. We got a little help but just a little so it didn’t helped us get through.. after 20 or 25 minutes staying there, finally we rowed back to the main station and got out of that boat. And at last we went back safe! 🙂 pheew…

Then I realized that at times like this, not everyone near you, or close to you could help you get out of that certain something your stuck on. Sometimes, you just need “YOU” to get yourself through all those stuff that you we’re stuck into. 🙂 But anyway, it was a challenge and had been an amazing experience. 😀 Besides all the fears, and all the stress, we we’re able to try it, and got through it. 🙂

Yes I can..

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Sounds familiar eh? 🙂 A 10-letter word with an abysmal meaning. A simple adjective, almost forgotten by a lot of people especially students at my age. 🙂 Most of us are afraid of failures and discriminations.. Maybe those are the reasons why we pretend to be someone else, or be like someone else just to fit ourselves in because we feel like we don’t belong.

Well maybe it’s time to get out of the box, and explore the world that you’ve been in. It’s just that, you’ve never gone out or it seems as if your stuck at one place and couldn’t move on to another but you want to. So, are you ready? 🙂

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I think life would be more meaningful and fun if you stick to this. BELIEVE.. 🙂 Do not be afraid to believe.. do  not be afraid to show yourself; Instead be more like yourself. 😉

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“Do not distress yourself from dark imaginings” -Desiderata-

Learn to dream, and let go of those unpleasant imaginings.. Live the life you’ve always wanted without thinking about what everyone else thinks about you, as long as you are being you.

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And here it is.. 🙂 this one thing we all share in common. almost all girls has this kind of disease. INSECURITIES.. We are beautiful no matter what everyone else say.. and their words could never bring us down. try to look at yourself in a mirror everyday, and tell yourself your beautiful, not just outside. You are Beautiful, inside and out. 😉

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Hate me all you want, but I will love me for what I am. and for who I am. Sometimes, it is always important to love yourself.  Don’t be too hard on you. take it slow, and give yourself a break. How can you ever appreciate others if you can’t appreciate your own? How can you accept, if you can’t accept your own? most importantly, How can you love, when you don’t love yourself at all? Think about it..

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There are always these sudden people who laughs at you and loves to see you suffer. LEARN TO IGNORE.. Because If you continue to entertaining them, what will happen to you? they’ll just do what they do best, and that is to take advantage over you. Be tough.. gain courage. 😉

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So this is it.. finally. Yes, we are not perfect, and yes we are just human beings. But please don’t forget, that we are all equally, and wonderfully made by the Supreme High. He knows that all of us posses the kind of beauty and goodness of the heart. Have faith. Keep it and take hold of it. For it will not only give you the confidence you need. It will pave the way to discover the real you inside. 🙂

*I dedicate this to a person whom through all these years, she never believed in what she can do or offer. I hope this will reflect not only to her, but also to other people who feels the same way as she does.  So, SMILE, and BE CONFIDENT. 😉  *

-Believe in yourself, and you can.. YES, YOU CAN. 😉 –

I am a SUPERWOMAN :)

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“I am a superwoman, Yes I am.. Still when I’m a mess, I still put on a vest with an “S” on my chest, oh yes .. I’M A SUPERWOMAN. 🙂 “

o-Alicia Keys-o

This is for every girl, for every lady, and  for every women who are strong not just physically, but of course emotionally and spiritually. A woman is a symbol of true beauty, humility, and innocence. They might say we’re Naturally weak, but take note.. we are just more than a woman. We are more than just ordinary.

We can stand up for ourselves without a SUPERMAN if we want too.. we can even be the Ms. Independent all the other boys admire. Or even be Ms. Universe with a crown of beauty and grace.

So girls, we can be anything extraordinary.. all we have to do is to be ourselves, wear our best make up which is our smile, and our sexy intelligence. 🙂 but most importantly, let us wear our greatest personality, And always remember to be your own hero. :*

At the Secretariat

|Nicole & Joanna  at the couch (Inside Secretariat) |

The Secretariat seemed like a house in structure and was just near the Benitez Hall at Teacher’s Camp, Baguio City. We called it “home” because we stayed there for almost a week. The Secretariat has 2 floors actually. The first floor was for the facilitators and important people in charge of the Leadership Training Activities. We were staying at the 1st floor, ground floor rather, with our Wonderful Teacher Mrs. Estrella Feliciano, together with 3 Senior High School Students at that time; Kuya Arnold Kent Bantaculo, Ate Lilian Mae Garcia and Ate Kathleen Calvara, and us, Junior High School students at that time; Joanna Christy Filamor, Gino Paul Lumpas, Niole Trisha Montallana and yours truly. 🙂

We were indeed lucky enough for staying at the Secretariat because a lot of delegates were staying at the different Halls, and not all of them are comfortable in their respective Halls. Luckily, we felt home in ours. we had 3 rooms, a mini kitchen, a comfort room, and a fridge. 🙂 The first room was for the Boys composed of 2 bedrooms. So Gino and Kuya Arnold were together in the same room, while Joanna, Ma’am Feliciano & I stayed at one room also composed of 2 bedrooms. Joanna and I happened to be together in one bed. The 3rd and final room was composed of 2 bedrooms as well, with Nicole, Ate Kath, and Ate Lilian.

|Yours truly, and Joanna at the Secretariat 🙂 | 

All throughout the days staying at the Secretariat was a fun moment especially when we feel exhausted and knackered. 😀 But there is also one thing I would like to share to all of you. It’s this experience that I never had since then, and it happened at the secretariat.

Every night, we are all aware that people upstairs are very busy and sleeps late at night because as I have mentioned earlier, they are the ones who are in charge of the activities. Every single night, we hear loud footsteps and stomps from above and oftentimes, we hear a lot of them stepping at different directions. Of course we don’t mind because people in there are always up to something important.

During our Last Evening at the Secretariats, we didn’t go to sleep early. We we’re just talking and laughing and sorting things out, when suddenly there were those footsteps again. Then I said; ” Here we are again.. People upstairs are always busy”. Then Kuya Arnold said, “No, your wrong about that. those footsteps you heard all throughout our stay didn’t came from the people upstairs”. 

After he said that, I started wondering.. “What?? seriously? I think your wrong because their floor upstairs is made up of wood. ”  I was in doubt at that time. “Of course not.. try to check their floor tomorrow morning if it’s made of wood. I dare you. ” Then I smiled and said, “Ok, deal. I’ll prove you wrong” 🙂

That Evening, we started packing our bags since we’ll all be leaving the next day. That morning, we woke up a little bit late because ’twas 7:30, and when we went out for breakfast on our way to Benitez, there were only a few delegates left since all others already left the camp. After Breakfast, we went to buy Delicacies for Pasalubong. Suddenly, I remembered what Kuya Arnold told me, And because of my curiosity, I sneaked in and took a peek at the Secretariat. And to my surprise, the floor wasn’t made up of wood, instead it was made of cement. I was stunned, and got my eyes wide open. Then I think to myself, Woah??? the whole time? I didn’t know what to say, and I got goose bumps. 😀 Lesson? 🙂 You don’t need to see things before you believe.